ASR Blog #7 – Who Serves Best Doesn’t Always Understand

Love means to look at yourself

The way one looks at distant things

For you are only one thing among many.

And whoever sees that way heals his heart,

Without knowing it, from various ills –

A bird and a tree say to him: Friend.

Then he wants to use himself and things

So that they stand in the glow of ripeness.

It doesn’t matter whether he knows what he serves:

Who serves best doesn’t always understand.

–       Czeslaw Milosz


It doesn’t matter whether he knows what he serves: Who serves best doesn’t always understand.

 What a profound and courageous act of surrender – to give our usefulness over to the whole of life, never knowing if, or when, or how, or to whom our efforts will be of service.

The hero in us often stumbles here.  We get caught up in our ego concerns of what to serve, and how well or poorly will we serve?  We wonder who best to serve, when is the right time to serve, and always this one – is my service good enough?

When I let go of my own performance expectations and loosen my ego’s gripping and grasping on measuring – I fall away into the distance, into the vastness of things, into the deep unknown.  This feels like an endless and timeless process of surrendering control over any particular outcome.   Life lived this way is seen as always less-than-certain, and more-than-fixable or predictable.

The mystics say this is where the path itself dissolves, where words turn back, and the deepening into the mystery of life begins.  I do my best to remember that eventually I will find myself somehow being enveloped by a receptive and loving universe as I go forth.   I keep in mind that in some way, I will be caught up in and captivated by what I love to do most in this world.

Slowly, I continue on and forward, learning ways to follow my own unique pathway to bliss, doing what I love most, offering it to this life one more time, wondering where it will take me, and who it may ultimately serve.  Living into that question, letting go of any answers.

That is all I need to understand.

– Michael Mervosh